I Appreciate What I Have Learnt Today....

Today wasn't my day.
Just like what my friend has said, 

Feel like I am a fish on the chopping board. 

I worked with uncertainty, de-motivated spirit.
I did my best to bring the level of confident up in
every situation I faced.

Maybe nobody is wrong in that particular situation 

(Provided if we willing to put our self into other people'shoes) 

Perhaps I just need someone to pat my back and say: 

"Hey, dont worry. Everything is alright"

But, where the positive energy gone? 

I started to question myself:
"Am I ready that bad?" 

Or,
Maybe its a good chance for me to learn throughout the lesson?  

I am blur, getting more and more blur.

I recalled this,
If you are not the perfect one, then please do something about it, 

You just need to push yourself to the max to be the perfect one.

However, 

From my personal point of view, 

As long as you are human, you might have just do 

or did any mistake without you yourself even realize on it. 

That's why we learnt and grown up.

Sometimes, I may not even understand why you putting so much of expectation on me?
And say on the things that I really don't know. 

Instead of trying to justify, I keep silent and listen. 

I am very happy cause you showed concern on what I really want to do and what I don't. 

But as times goes by, my voice is getting softer and softer.
I may not even dare to speak up my mind sometimes. 

Cause I lost the element called 'C'.

I kind that upset that you are like knowing everything by just looking at my face, making judgement just like that. 

( Even though I haven't finish expressing) 

I am not a SMART person,

I shared what I feel, what I read, & what I saw.
I only know when I get upset,
I will find something to cheer me up 

(Like buying Koko Chrunch just now, how come so fast out of stock huh!?) 

Maybe the last few words I can say is: 

Kumiko/ Siao Qing, please motivate yourself and choose the right path to go further.
Do not stop, and don't give up! 

Just trying and trying until you are putting a smile on your face.

- Good Night -